what is love to me

yeah ..for those had been friend with me for a long time they knew it already what i will answer. love is a " LIE"..

 but sometimes i think, until when i should hold that thought. actually i don't know what love it is. most of loves i saw in the real world are the fake one. it wasn't love, it was a desire. sex desire. then, how could i fall in love because most guys in my country just wants to filling their desire. it's weird i guess. and i also regret for said this words " LOVE YOU'' easily. I'm so regret. haisyh. these words are too precious. i should not lost it and give to the inappropriate person actually. i just hoping from now, i will meet my mr right soon. *pray hard*

A smart girl would rather be single than to be lied to, cheated on, and disrespected. coz of that, i gave up everything. i did like someone but i think my heart must go well so, i stop it now. maybe that time, my heart seems doesn't functional properly. ermm..i think i was being disrespected. basically, respect is the must be in any relationship. you said you like me, but you said girls are evil. am i a boy? you said at the girl you like/love/ whatever that they're evil?? erm totally you doesn't know what is "respect".  actions are more precious than words.i need someone like this. it was a long time ago, i melted with your words.but now i think, you just saying not doing anything. it's a coward dude. i'm not that mean, it just shows that you are not really in love coz you just saying and saying and saying. what is your prove? i'm gladly accept any guys whose wait for me until i finished work and packed a lunch for me. haha. why? because if i'm really in love with a guy, i will do the same. i know i'm kinda annoying .  it is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you are not. now i'm beware with all pretty words because Pretty words are not always true, & true words are not always pretty. hehe. i feel free now. single is the precious time we ever had. kekeke. no need to worry, we already have our own love story. just waiting for it. kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! hwaiting!

tragic in the bus . hehe

as usual woke up on 8 a.m then went to work. erm today was all student's first day attending school. so envy meyh. i'm no longer a school kiddo. how sad. my stomach really full today. if there's para and aki, for sure every second we do are eating. kekekeke. haaa! my bestie, para..she's the crazy one. she asked me, no one here right? and i said yes. you know what? she's going to F.A.R.T. but when she's farting, there's someone. puahahahahahaha we can't stop laughed. embrassed + trooling. muahahahaha.

n how about tragic in the bus? haha. good looking guy is tragic right? kekeke. me and para met a good looking guy. uwooahh kinda ~~haha (mouth opened)... haha. i think para fallin love with that guy. hahaha. yeah, the guy really looks like korean boy. totally~~uwahhhhhhhhhhhh. hahaha. my besties interpret her feelings in the bus by using F's language with me. haha mianhae babe i'm kinda loading with that language. hoho today was kinda crazy though..kkkk

goodnight folks!

third day in year of 2012

i woke up after i heard child's voice. erm? who's voice? haha it's neither nightmare or still dreaming. it was my aunt's beloved son. this year, my mom in charged of being a babysitter. actually mom planned to rest this year after worked for many many years. yeah, mom's so nice. sacrificed her rest for her nephew. i need to be like mom. although some stuff that we can't do but at least we have to try it out.today was my 22 days worked at Flexxie Style Collection. erm...two days more for the December's salary. I already did my planning saving. I realized that we all need money to survive.some romantic movies or dramas shows that love is more important than money. I'm just agreeing if that 'LOVE' is from Allah (God), family and friends. urm, the another unfamiliar love...? I'm not really sure. oh yeah, because of that, all mans said that woman s only  wants money. hyep guys! are you sure you could feed up your girlfriends/ wives with love?? it was so lie. em, stop about that. just making me a little bit emotional.oh, I'm not only a full time worker, now i have to do a part time job. what's job? there.., part time babysitter on Tuesday and Thursday's night. these job really thought me for being more though in the future. now I'm just in the beginning stage of adult's life.so, any complain is prohibited. goodnight yo!